I know I put too much importance on a few lbs, but I do. I was down to 213lbs on Friday, and yesterday I was back up to 216lbs although I stayed within my calories. It makes you feel helpless. I had nightmares all night. One dream was about going out to a chinese buffet with a few friends that have all moved away. While I was waiting for people I ate sweet and sour chicken and then realized I had eaten meat later on in the dream. Later in the dream I called my mom from work in a panic looking for my dogs, one of which has been dead for a few years. All in all, a terrible night. I woke up several times between bad dreams and decided I was just not ready to deal with the day. Thankfully for me Mondays are work light.
I had gotten down to 195lbs for a week last October and then the holidays came and I was derailed. I am angry at myself. I need to stop beating myself up so much and focus on the day, and that’s what I’m trying to do. So, onto a more hopeful day. My weight is back down to 214lbs. I started at 219lbs July 11th. I use “loseit” on my phone to track my food and exercise. It keeps me honest. It’s such a great skinners box, and I advise anyone trying to lose weight to use it. Also my very best gym buddy is back from Georgia. She was gone for two weeks and I have been slacking. We’re going to meet up soon!
Weekday mornings I usually drink a soy protein shake, which will probably follow tomorrow. However I didn’t freeze any bananas so no shake for me. Instead I made a fruit salad. I had that with some coffee. This isn’t what most of my recipes will be like, but sometimes simple is better.
Kiwi Fruit Salad
- 5 peeled and sliced kiwi
- 1 whole cantaloupe cut into cubes
- 2 bananas sliced
This makes about 3 servings with about 210 calories per serving.